[Death Note / Sailor Moon] Fic: Chrysalis
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flonnebonneFandom: Death Note and Sailor Moon crossover
Characters: Ami, Usagi
Genre: Drama
Spoilers: Very vagues ones for DN chapter 87 or so
Summary: Ami copes with Kira's world.
Chrysalis
“So, how’s the Kira research coming along?”
Usagi’s voice was a little too high-pitched, her manner a little too nervous, her question a little too casual. Ami was prepared for this.
“I wish I had some news to tell you,” she said, an apologetic smile on her face. “There’s only so much I can do with the resources available to me, and I can’t neglect my job for this.”
“But you knew Takada Kiyomi at Toudai, right?”
Ami’s smile was still frozen on her face. “I knew of her. She certainly didn’t know me.”
“Oh. Okay. I understand.” Usagi must have sensed Ami’s impatience even through the fuzziness of the webcam. She sounded hurt.
This was why it was so hard to deal with Usagi sometimes, Ami thought with an internal sigh. Usagi was too kind for the world’s cruelty, and Ami would always feel a need to protect that kindness.
“I’m sorry, it’s been stressful at work,” she said. “The lab has been...tense.
“No, I’m the one who should be apologizing, Ami. I’m just so...so frustrated, you know? We stop all the youma like we’ve always done, but when I get to school in the morning all my students can talk about is Kira this, Kira that. They think he’s a hero, and the kids who don’t buy into it are too afraid to say anything. I’m not allowed to say anything.”
“It’s the same at the lab.”
“It’s not the killing that scares me,” said Usagi. “What scares me is that people are supporting him.”
It surprised Ami, to hear that. Not so naïve after all, their princess.
“Ah, that reminds me,” said Ami, thinking that it would be best to change the subject, “I’ve been trying to figure out why we can’t pick up any magical energy signals from Kira. Maybe he’s not using magic per se. Maybe the magic is imbedded inside something so that we can’t trace it. We were never able to pick up on the locations of the rainbow crystals or the talismans when they were inside people, for instance.
“But the crystals and talismans couldn’t be properly used unless they got taken out...”
“I know, I’m still working on that part. But maybe he’s...using something else? Or someone else? It’s hard to say. I have nothing to work on.”
“If only we could bust into Police HQ and steal whatever evidence they have.”
Ami broke into surprised laughter. “Usagi! That’s no way for a future queen to talk!”
The future queen was sticking her tongue out at the webcam. “When I’m queen I’ll be able to do whatever I want.”
“No, you won’t. Royalty are the most restricted people of all. Especially women. People will be watching your movements like a hawk.”
“Come on, Ami. Lighten up a little. Crystal Tokyo is gonna be my town.”
“Yes, I suppose it will be.”
“And it’s going to be the perfect city. No murders, no fear, no Kira.”
Ami gave Usagi a long look.
“There’s no such thing as a perfect city,” she said.
“But we know Crystal Tokyo is going to be a utopia, like the Silver Millenium.”
The Silver Millenium gave birth to Beryl, Ami wanted to say. It gave birth to us.
She told Usagi blandly: “It’s not likely that an ideal city is going to spring up out of nothing. My theory is that the initial cohesiveness of Crystal Tokyo will be based on the shared need for survival and the threat of youma attack, but this will eventually give way to a proper civil order based on—”
“—love and justice in the name of the moon!”
Ami had been about to say “democratic principles” but she smiled at Usagi’s outburst.
“There will be justice done,” said Ami. “Because Kira doesn’t know that the Great Ice is coming. Only we do. There are so many factors that can’t be predicted. Kira’s world won’t last forever.”
“Right,” said Usagi, seeming to give the idea some thought.
Don’t let her realize that I just said the end of the world is going to be our greatest weapon.
“You know,” Usagi said seriously, “even if Kira is caught, what is the world going to be like afterwards? I might joke around about Crystal Tokyo, but I really do want it to be the perfect city. I want it to be something that everyone builds together. I can’t imagine the people out there—” she waved her hand vaguely, probably in the direction of a window, “—the Kira supporters, are going to be the sort of people who will help us build Crystal Tokyo.”
Ami gave her a wry look. “Usagi, the truth of the matter is that the world is more unified than it has ever been. If you want order—and I think order is what’s the most important thing in getting a city built—then you’ve got it.”
Usagi’s voice was incredulous. “Ami, you don’t think Kira is laying the foundations for Crystal Tokyo, do you?”
Ami recognized the emotion in her princess’ eyes—she had seen it too often over the years. It was the hurt of betrayal.
“I never thought such a thing. I think the people will go back to normal when Kira is caught,” Ami said with more sincerity than she actually felt. “Like when we kill a youma and their spell is released.”
“Release the hearts of the people from your spell, evil-doer!” Usagi chimed in with a giggle.
“Exactly.”
“You’re probably right. You’re Ami after all.”
“Now I’m blushing,” said Ami, who was a bit alarmed to find that she actually was.
“Well, I’m glad,” said Usagi. “Oops, what time is it? Um, I have to go now. Mamoru will be home soon and I have to prepare dinner.”
“Say hi to him for me.”
“You bet. Take care of yourself, okay? I mean it.”
Ami managed to smile weakly. “You too.”
"Bye!"
Usagi was so pure it was almost exasperating, thought Ami guiltily as she closed the chat program. So pure that she would never truly understand how terrible humanity could be, in all its mundane glory. How people could come home every day and turn on the television to see the foundations of their civilization being shaken to the core by one man--and do nothing. Usagi couldn’t even see Ami, as they faced each other through the blink-blink-blink of their computer screens, sliding into mundanity along with the rest of the world.
There was something about Usagi now that was just a little sad--no, not exactly sad. It was probably all in Ami's head as she overlaid the Usagi of her memories with the Usagi she had seen in front of her, the impossibly innocent girl against the fuzzy graphic of a young woman on her computer screen. Not sad, exactly.
She feels responsible for what’s happening. She already feels responsible for her future subjects.
Her future subjects, these people whose hearts were not so pure as her own. No doubt Usagi was already anticipating a magical showdown with Kira over the fate of humanity. “Release the hearts of the people from your spell, evil-doer!”
It was wrong of her to think of Usagi in such terms, but Ami couldn't help it as she surfed the Internet for new developments on the Kira front. Early this morning, four convicted felons in their late teens who were responsible for a chain of break-ins in Shibuya were found dead in their jail cells. The cause of death was heart failure. Usagi would have been disturbed, but Ami was mostly disinterested. She couldn’t get worked up over everything, not if she wanted to remain sane and useful.
The websites devoted to Kira-worship weren’t showing much activity today, though Ami hadn’t expected much help from that quarter. The ravings of lunatics were not a particularly useful source of information.
She did a quick survey of the most important Kira fan sites before turning to news on the business world. This was the part of her research that really frightened her--untangling the coded language of takeovers and mergers and three-point margins to realize that almost all of the major corporations were, as if in concert, turning towards Kira. It was the inevitable logic of economics. To her this was worse than hearing the politicians spewing their pro-Kira rhetoric. It was more easily hidden, more insidious, more pervasive.
Ami suddenly realized that she was reading a news brief about the company she worked for.
...stock rose to nearly ten thousand yen last month, an increase of almost ten percent in this quarter alone. President Togawa had this to say about his company’s success:
“We can't really take all the credit, can we? The true heroes are the people who have made Japan--no, not just Japan--the whole world, a place where businesses like ours can operate with a sense of security. Confidence is up and the tech sector as a whole is receiving a great deal of investment...”
That was enough for tonight. She closed the web browser, shut down her computer, and covered up the webcam with a dustcloth.
She didn't like having the lens gazing down at her from atop her computer when she was trying to fall asleep at night. The only reason she owned a webcam at all was because it had been a gift from Minako (“I know how you love gadgets, Ami, and now you’ll have no excuse not to see us once in a while!”). Ami didn’t much like using it during her chat sessions, in fact. She hated trying to keep one eye on the monitor and the other on the camera and seeing the person on the other side of the screen doing the same. Their eyes did not quite connect. It was a problem that could be solved with improvements in technology but, nevertheless, she felt that the essential schism could not be overcome.
She realized, suddenly, that the gaze of the webcam reminded her of something.
She opened up her closet and dug around until she found an old tape recorder she had used during her university days. She clicked the play button.
“...admired by many for the economy of its design. In its purest form, the Panopticon prison requires but one guard to observe the entire complex. You can imagine why the people writing the paycheques liked that idea.”
The sound of the class laughing, enthralled.
“The main principle behind Bentham’s design is ‘the disciplining gaze.' The prison is designed so that a single observer in a high place can see every action that takes place within its walls, but the prisoners cannot see the observer. They do not know when they are being watched. They understand that surveillance, though invisible, is ubiquitous. Eventually, they internalize the gaze to such an extent that a watcher is hardly needed.
“But more than that, the idea of the eye in its high tower, as the single organizing principle and agent of discipline for an entire prison—it was thought to be quite elegant.”
She wondered why she had bothered to keep this recording. While it was relevant to the Kira case in an abstract sense, the subject matter was something that could be easily found in a textbook. She could only conclude that she had not recorded over it because she'd had some interest in the speaker. Yagami Raito had been self-assured and eloquent, but these traits were hardly unusual in Toudai students.
Ami hadn't enjoyed university very much. She remembered the uncomfortable feeling of being surrounded by a throng of former class presidents, how she had let herself shrink into the background while people like Yagami took centre stage. She remembered thinking that she hadn't actually grown that much at all since high school, not when she was in a place like Toudai and stripped of her friends and family.
Despite her shyness, Yagami had been kind enough to speak to her once or twice. He had even called her by name. It was remarkable, the soothing influence he was able to exude with words alone. His was the voice of serenity.
She wondered if that was what Kira’s voice sounded like. A voice that calmed her soul and let her forget her fears for a little while.
She closed her eyes and laid her head down on her desk, exhausted.
That night she dreamed she stood in an ashen plain dotted by trees of bone, whose spindly branches were laden with innumerable red apples and where shadowy creatures wove their secrets.. There was something impossibly beautiful about the blasted landscape, about the way the trees seemed to bow towards a single point on the horizon. In the distance she heard the voice of Serenity saying conversationally, “You don’t think Kira is laying the foundations for Crystal Tokyo, do you?”
Ami saw herself look up. She saw herself seeing a shinigami’s eye in a crystal tower, gazing down at her with a terrible, undeniable brilliance.
-End-
Author’s notes:
To whoever first cooked up the idea of Crystal Tokyo as a totalitarian state, I salute you. I suspect it was Mark Doherty in his marvellous(ly unfinished) classic “I’m Here to Help,” but I’m not sure. Speaking of which, does anyone know where to find that story? My Google searches have turned up naught but sad, broken links. At any rate, I owe a lot to “I’m Here to Help,” as well as to Ken Wolfe’s “The Four Horsemen.”
I’m not very familiar with Sailor Moon canon or fanon, so comments and criticisms are very welcome.
Um, is there some com where I should be posting this?
*crawling back into my hole to write term papers and study for finals*
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Date: 2006-04-02 03:19 am (UTC)also: the panopticon! i remember that from an essay class. kind of terrifying, really.
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Date: 2006-04-02 07:28 am (UTC)Secondly, thank you. :) I do think there are some problems with the writing (I keep revising it), but I'm proud of my ideas. I was a bit worried that Ami and Usagi sound more like mouthpieces than themselves, so I appreciate your comments. :)
Panopticon is scary, isn't it? I just wish I'd read 1984 or Brave New World, considering that those are supposed to be the books to read about dystopias.
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Date: 2006-04-02 11:01 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2006-04-03 04:23 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2006-04-03 05:11 pm (UTC)You totally rock for writing this! I was really feeling the whole 'Usagi is going to be a dictator!' vibe you had going through her conversation with Ami. It was really freaky in the anime how everyone just kind of goes along that Usagi is going to be the supreme ruler of the whole world in Crystal Tokyo. You don't really find out what acts cause the world to be under the rule of one woman nor do you find out how Usagi matures into a person capable of being that ruler.
I remember the whole Chibiusa arc where you see Usagi and Chibiusa fighting like cats and dogs, and you wonder how does Usagi go from lazy , incompetent to ultra laid back and reserved. It doesn't really makes sense.
I loved your spin with DN though and how Kira could be one of the factors of a world gone wrong. You would have to think something serious would have had to happen to the whole world before anyone would go to the Sailorscouts for help.
Oh, and that fic you were looking for? Try this link: http://web.archive.org/web/20041013213404/http://ladykoneko.net/Library/SMoon/Doherty/HeretoHelp.htm
Archive.org is the best place to get fics that seem not to be working anymore. The site only seems to be working up to part 6a, but I hope it helps.
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Date: 2006-04-04 12:06 am (UTC)I know! What's wrong with me???
You would have to think something serious would have had to happen to the whole world before anyone would go to the Sailorscouts for help.
Whaaaat, you think teenage girls aren't fit to rule the world? (Okay, so they'll be a bit older by the time the 30th century rolls around).
Check out some of the awesome presidential candidates Usagi is up against:
http://community.livejournal.com/scans_daily/1700628.html#cutid1
http://www.drinkatwork.com/ml_tgp.html
I think the problem with Usagi's development (or lack thereof) is that the creators were trying to make her into someone the viewers could relate with (dopey schoolgirl) while also making her out to be what every girl wants to be: a dignified fairy-tale princess
who rules the world with an iron fist. I suppose her Sailor Moon persona is supposed to be a bridge between those two extremes, since she does show backbone and grace when she's fighting evil, but you're right that her personality does a total one-eighty.Thanks for the link! That site looks like a great resource.
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Date: 2009-07-29 02:07 pm (UTC)http://www.fanfiction.net/s/3337074/1/Im_Here_to_Help
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Date: 2009-07-30 01:01 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2009-07-30 01:25 am (UTC)Empire building and politics /would/ require dirtying one's hands, and I certainly see Neo-Queen Serenity of Crystal Tokyo being very DIFFERENT from the Usagi seen in canon. (CANONICALLY knowing she'd have to send her own singular offspring back to the past to SUFFER and come in risk of dying and fading from existence? The old Usagi would've been 'hell with this' and tried to make it so Chibiusa would've had SOME warning or protection, if not trying to throw herself into the whole time travelling mess and make it so NO ONE BLOODY SUFFERS.)
And Death Note. Ah, Death Note. I finished the series, but kind of lost interest once poor M and Matt went. -_- And it was a pretty anticlimatic finish .... much as a certain person DESERVED it.
It's so much MORE interesting to see good fanfiction trying to plug the plotholes/expand from a different perspective.
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Date: 2006-05-03 09:51 am (UTC)There was something creepy about the way they spoke about Utopia and how Serena was going to become Queen of Tokyou in the future, and all was good, yet there were still villains coming from it, etc.
Amy's point of view throughout was just peferct.
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Date: 2006-05-03 09:51 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2006-05-03 06:25 pm (UTC)Thanks for the compliments! I'm not much of a Sailor Moon fan either (I haven't even seen much of the series beyond the second season), so I felt weird writing these characters.
You are my chocolate adrenaline
Date: 2008-04-14 01:05 pm (UTC)It's been many years since I last touched Sailor Moon, so I don't have much authority on their characterizations. As far as that goes, nothing prickled at me except for brief moments of weird maturity on Usagi's part (which is justifiable).
I love how you question Crystal Tokyo. I never did back then. Certainly, I never completely bought into "a perfect world of love and justice," but the whole point of Sailor Moon for me was that they (we) were trying to get to that perfect world. The process, more than the ideal, was what appealed, and I never gave much thought to what the foundation of Crystal Tokyo might be.
initial cohesiveness of Crystal Tokyo will be based on the shared need for survival and the threat of youma attack, but this will eventually give way to a proper civil order Doesn't that just sound scarily primitive? Is it possible to rebuild a world -without- a totalitarian system though?
But anyway. Yes, the implications behind their conversation was very thought-provoking. Not just Usagi with her brand of selfishness but also Ami acquiescing to her princess. Juxtaposed next to the talk of Kira and Kira's supporters, it's not the most comfortable of portrayals. And then Raito with his soothing voice and magnetic egoism and Ami of all people being drawn to it. ("I knew of her. She certainly didn't know me." That stuck with me.) Very interesting ideas.
My favorite? The image of Kira laying the foundations for Crystal Tokyo is brilliantly perfect, so right, and I wonder that the thought hadn't occured to me before. He would be thrilled to know it.
Anywho. Thanks for some very interesting stuff to mull over. I've also finally remember why your username is so familiar. I forgot that you write in the HnG fandom. :) I'd love to see more Death Note stuff from you! Best wishes!
Re: You are my chocolate adrenaline
Date: 2008-04-16 02:40 pm (UTC)It's been years since I've touched Sailor Moon too, and I mostly only watched the dub, so I can hardly say I have any authority at all on the characters! I'm not surprised Usagi felt a bit off to you--there are definitely moments that feel weird to me as well. Thank you for the criticism, I enjoy that kind of thing. :)
The whole questioning of Crystal Tokyo idea was something I would have never come up with on my own (it's not like the show encourages you to ask questions). The idea is completely stolen from other fanfics. Isn't it a great way of turning Sailor Moon upside down? I wish I could thank whoever thought it up first.
I think that technically the best, most efficient system of government would actually be a benevolent dictatorship a la Crystal Tokyo. But in reality, you can't have such a thing--power corrupts, and absolute power corrupts absolutely yada yada yada. And even if you could find an incorruptible (is that a word?) leader, her successors would not necessarily be so benign.
So yes, in a primitive society that's struggling to survive, totalitarianism rocks and democracy is lunacy. Just look at all the resources we waste for our electoral process. -_- If only we had a benevolent dictator! (I'm just being silly now, mostly)
I chose Ami for this role because she's so scarily intelligent but also a total follower--and there are a lot of people who are like that, aren't there? Intelligence doesn't make you a leader, charisma does. And Usagi has lots of charisma (and genuine heart). Raito is scary because he's got BOTH charisma and freakish intelligence, as well as an unhealthy dose of ruthlessness. But at least he's easily identifiable as a dictator, whereas Serenity is not.
Anyway, thank you so much for the long, thoughtful review. I love getting comments like this. You've helped me learn a lot about my own story (when I write I often can't articulate my concepts clearly to myself, I can only express them in a roundabout way through the characters). I feel like this story has good ideas but could use a little polishing. I'll have to edit it one of these days when I'm feeling up to it.
Oh, and I do have one or two more DN fics in the works. :)
Re: You are my chocolate adrenaline
Date: 2008-04-24 08:19 pm (UTC)You know, I do remember reading a few dark!Crystal Tokyo SM fanfics now that I think of it. The extent of Serenity and Endymion's corruption differed widely for each fic, but even if they were just a tiny bit morally ambiguous, I would high-tail it with the speed only a preteen in denial could achieve. That's the attraction (and the problem in fanfiction) with Sailor Moon, I think: it's meant to be entirely idealistic, so using it as a medium to explore reality almost goes against its canon. At least, that was the root of my own aversion to dark SM fics; they shattered my perfect little bubble!
But of course, now that I'm older and wiser and more corrupt myself, what else is fanfiction for but to, as you said, turn things upside down? :D
And even if you could find an incorruptible (is that a word?) leader, her successors would not necessarily be so benign.
Right. And what the series tries to imply, I think, is exactly that, that Usagi simply possesses too pure of a heart to be corrupted, which isn't particularly realistic but is a nice hope to hang on to. Yes, incorruptible is definitely a word! Incorruptible, incorrigible - one of my favorite pairs of words. XD
Ohh, yes, that's a great point on the characters of Ami, Usagi, and Raito. It came through very well in this fanfic; I could clearly see the similarities between Ami and the "supporters of Kira," and you brought it a step further with the "She certainly didn't know me" bit. Ami as the quiet, neglected obedient in the sidelines, resentful of if also admiring of the one in the spotlight is an image terrifyingly applicable to most of us. The perfect personality for a follower.
You're welcome for the comments! There's absolutely no need to thank me. I really enjoyed this fic and the thoughts it provoked. And that's another great thing about fanfiction. It's a wonderful alternative of discussion to the usual essay-form venue of expression. And I can't wait for those DN fics! Happy writing!
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Date: 2008-05-19 10:47 am (UTC)I think I identify with Ami too much...well, I'm certainly not as intelligent as she is, and not as shy, but I'm just as much as a follower. Which is probably why I ended up writing this fic. Hm, now I'm kind of disturbed.
Anyway, thanks again for the recs and all the wonderful comments. You're a sweetheart. :)
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Date: 2008-05-22 08:58 am (UTC)Hope the headaches are easing!
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